an emo post?

i haven't posted any emo sounding post in a long time eh. well that's because i haven't been feeling emo or anything. ok let's not use the word 'emo' it's so... passe. i haven't been feeling.. wow there isn't a better word.
Well, yknow, the feeling where your brain jumps on a million thoughts at once, and your stomach feels a little uneasy, and you find it hard to focus. And you can't seem to smile no matter how you force yourself.

The feeling where you can stare into blank space for an entire minute without even realising you're staring into blank space. The feeling when you start to ponder and your thoughts border onto slightly sad thoughts and your throat almost immediately feels a lump.

I got this feeling after reading through someone's blog..which had many emo entries recently. You know they say a smile is contagious? well being emo is too apparently.
Maybe it's because i'm feeling tired, so the emo-ness sets in rapidly. Or maybe it's because my TV-streaming isn't loading fast enough and tmr is bookin day so my low spirits lead to rapid emo-ness.


There are so many things that are potentially 'make-me-sad' material:

- There is the dreadful 32km route march this wednesday (what if i collapse after 1km? or 10? remember, most cardiac arrest victims show no visible signs pre-attack.)

- i have to book in tmr

- my scalp is rotting. ok not rotting but.. i dunno how to describe it.. like small parts of it is peeling off like scab and it hurts. i have no idea why

- i have infections on my legs and they're both gonna get amputated. lol no i'm just kidding. but there ARE 2 disgusting patches on either leg. They look like scrapes, but they could also be infections after field camp (when i discovered it) If they start mutating i'm gonna go see doctor. Maybe i'll go tomorrow. hmm.

- i wasted 700+ dollars on a specialist which gave me nothing but a lousy medical 'report' which just summarised everything i told him without recommending me to be excused from any training or whatsoever. Dr A.B John at Mount E. rude receptionist, and apparently he's rude too. He has this air of arrogance which just annoys me. :o am i gonna get sued? defamation? how about feedback. -_- see, another point to emo about.

- my psp memory card is too small and i have to constantly delete stuff to replace them with new ones. I can only keep 3 -4 games + 1 show. zz.

- i can't find a totallyawesomeomgthisgamerocks game for my psp. current favourite is Winning Eleven 08, but i may get bored of it soon. playing a bit of FF:CC, but as i said it's freaking boring.


man i can just go on and on.

ah yes, i miss being in love. it's a nice feeling, really. after watching Chuck and other shows with romance in it, it just makes you remininsce about personal experiences and hope for similar romances. Oh yes, when i'm in love i can also write cryptically like 'i miss a certain someone. i wish she will reply my msg'. i can also hide secret texts by writing them in white. Yup, many of my posts in the past (think late november-december 07) had hidden text. =) go find if you're really bored.

So fun! those were the days.

But now in army ahx. no time to pah tor one. so no time to look for girl also. but nvm hor, god will plan and ill meet someone eventually.
omg why did my english suddenly become so broken.
Speaking about english, army really degrades my language, especially the place where i'm in currently where a large majority speak Chinese predominantly and many speak bad english. as a result i get lazy and use bad grammar, etc. This cannot happen! i must maintain my standard of English. rawr.

Ok, enough emoing for now. it's getting late and i need to sleep. playing for worship tmr. with danchoo leading woot. i must say i enjoy playing for him/kel. fun. go figure.