love ode

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Dear _______,

i can't take it anymore.

when you walk into a room,
no wait, you practically waltz in -
the grace, the beauty, the smoothness
you aren't smiling, but it seems like a faint nonchalant grin is on your face
a grin that acknowledges that you know how attractive you are
a grin so subtle, yet telling everything -
yes, when you walk like that into the room
my head turns, my eyes fixate on you

i want to look away
i have to look away, i don't wanna be caught staring (at you)
but my brain doesn't cooperate
the left side keeps me riveted
like a compass reacting to a magnet
so i turn and look at you
and am unable to turn the other way

you cross the room,
you close the distance between us
you look even better, closer.
i finally snap out of your spell
but even when i look elsewhere
my heart keeps my peripherals on you
such that even when i'm not looking at you
i am looking at you

i almost forget to breathe
what can i do?
you take my breath away
when you turn to glance in my direction
i suck a quick breath in to calm myself down
and i hold it to steady my nerves
but my arms still tremble
my legs still jiggle
and i forget to breathe

when you're even closer
when i can hear your voice
no, it's not possible
no voice is as melodic as that.
no voice sounds like chimes in the wind
floating gently over the air
tinkling amidst the noise
maybe there isn't noise
but everything else sounds like noise
when made to compare against the sound of your voice.
no wait, the ;musical tone; of your voice
'sound' doesn't quite cut it.

i pretend i'm not listening
i pretend i'm not getting distracted
when you let out a peal of laughter
a warm tingle pass through my body
rippling through my nerves, my muscles, my fingers, my toes.
the task at hand is all but forgotten
your mindless chatter
imprints deeper in my head
than a chisel does on a stone


when you speak to me
oh, i can't respond
i try to
i open my mouth
not a squeak comes out
(though im glad not a 'squeak' comes out, that'll be embarrassing)
my heart is caught in my throat
i forget to breathe again.

if i was capable of blushing,
my face would be bright red by now
brighter than bright red
maybe a crimson flush
hence i hide my face, even though i probably look perfectly fine
i pretend not to hear you
they say ignorance is bliss didn't they?

you won't leave me alone!
'hey alan!' you go.
i can't pretend i didn't hear that
probably half the room heard it
or maybe it's just my imagination playing tricks on me
since i hear your voice much more clearly than all others
but how do i respond when i am tongue tied?
how do i speak when my tongue is twisted and knotted up like a sailor to his rope?
how do i articulate when my lips are frozen in all my nervousness?

you touch me gently
probably to emphasize your greeting
it wasn't in anyway provocative
you just tapped me on the shoulder
but it was like a hot knife slicing through butter
like a boulder crashing into a still river surface
SPLASH
i trembled in sheer exhilaration
the butterflies in my stomach have became snakes
snakes writhing around in my stomach


i turn to face you
your black eyes look into mine
it's like you were trying to hypnotize me
with the simplest of looks
mesmerized, i was.
i didn't want to blink
to miss a moment of this

a smile creeps across your face
happy? contented? amused?
i can't read it!
i can't think of anything much when you look at me like that
you make me flustered
you make my mind swirl


when i finally catch a hold of myself
i stop whirling around and the room stops spinning around me
no, i probably wasn't moving at all, but it seemed like it
seemed like i was twisting , soaring, rocketting around
on a high speed rollercoaster
more like a meteorite, shooting through the night sky
everything finally steadied, and i forced another breath in


we started to speak
though i have no idea what i was saying
i was just watching your full lips move
open and close
glistening under the dim room light
oh! what i would give to plant mine on yours
to press my lips gently, but surely
the taste of honey
pure honey, harvested from the comb
would pale in comparison to what i'll taste
when (if) we kiss

sensual seduction
it's not just the visual
your smell
your fragrance
floats gently off your body
my sensitive nose picks it up without fail
aroma theraphy
they must have derived it from a whiff of you
i could just lean in close
take a long deep breath
and die happy

what is that pounding noise?
that irregular, yet definite beat
it comes from within me
my heart is bursting to come out of my chest
it has probably swelled
and is probably doubly pumping
the moment you stepped into the room
all the way till this moment
it has probably raced even faster, stronger


i beg you
you need to stop it
it isn't fair, being you
you make everything off balance with your sheer beauty, elegance.
everything about you calls for my attention
everything about you drives me crazy
i can't concentrate on anything else now
how do we appreciate water when we've tasted the sweetest wine?
how do we continue to eat scraps when we've eaten steaks?
how do we live in mediocrity, after a life of luxury?


you are like a drug
i can't live without you
you give me a high
the more i have of you
the more i want
come to me ________,
come to me now
forget yesterday; it's history, that's why it is the past
tomorrow has yet to come,it is still a mystery
but today is a gift, that's why it is the present.
come to me now.


love, alan


~~alan teo 2008 (C) ----

they say thirteen is unlucky
but i say it is the clue.
i aint being superstitious
neither should you.

what you do when you are bored and have photoshop

this is a comic strip which i just made.. took freaking long k. like.. 1 hour ++

it's too big to paste here, so just go to the link below or click this minipicture . then click 'full size'



http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q166/atqhteo/bball.jpg

(i just realised photobucket has no 'thumbnail' option. :( weird. that small pic is a minimized form of the big one which i resized by myself.)

read from left to right. yupyup. =) enjoy!

Pizza Hut's Oily Chicken.

Pizza Hut has a brand new item on its menu... *

-drumroll-

The Oily Chicken!*



For a low price of $6.99, you get 6 pieces of tiny drumlets, fresh and crisp from the stove and
soaked in fresh vegetable oil overnight and re-soaked just before serving!



See? The abundance of oil on the surface of the skin is proof that we DO soak and resoak our delicious secret recipe chicken drumlets in vegetable oil!


Don't believe that we give generous portions of oil? Ask for 'extra oil' and we will be glad to top up the oil for free! What we do is soak it AFTER the resoak, so that it's literally dripping with delicious vegetable oil! This will leave your plate with a lovely film of oil as such:







Isn't that just absolutely mouth-watering?

So what are you waiting for? just come on down to Pizza Hut and order your Oily Chicken!


*disclaimer - the following entry is entirely fictitious. the author bears no responsibility for any resemblance to any real life item on any eatery's menu.

f1, hari raya, and my sad weekend.

i've no idea how to start a blog nowadays. do i go 'hi everyone what's up!' do i dive straight into what i wanna say? what if i have no idea what i wanna say, like now?


aight, what's up with the F1 and all? i mean sure, it's a historic event to have the first ever night race in the world in our lovely Republic. Sure, i feel a strong sense of pride when i read in the papers that some F1 bigshot guy complimented Singapore on its efficiency in putting together this F1 thing in such a short period of time.

But what i wanna know is, what's so nice about watching a car zoom past at several hundred km/h? (do they go that fast? or that slow? ive no idea)
And the thing is, you only see it once? like.. zoom. ok finish. then maybe when it comes again for the next lap.. zoom. ok finish.

It's not the same as watching on tv where the camera follows the racecar around the circuit.. THAT i can imagine vaguely interesting. Heck some guy even gets quoted in the papers today saying sth along the lines of: "Oh, i never liked the F1 before, but after yday when i sat through the race and hear the loud noises of the cars race past, i fell in love with it! it was so loud and noisy but that was what made me excited and love it!"

-_- you like loud noises? go to exxo n mobil refinery and stand in the middle. sure noisy until u shiok.


talking about that.. yknow my job in army now is to guard all the important places that the min ister of defe nce deems fit. such as the abovementioned refinery and airport and stuff. so this week.. im gonna be deployed to guard ju rong isla nd! ZZZ.
That means ill miss hari raya holiday (everyone else gets OFF that day) and one day of my weekend -_-
sian la! i planned to go out with my jc classmates that day already.. then now i can't go. sigh gonna be sad if i cant come out at all for my birthday weekend. i hope i can come out on sunday! then at least get to go out with bestie.

if you noticed the weird spacing between some phrases.. it's on purpose.. so that i can't be picked up on a search engine :p lalalala.

week end.

okkk. this weekend is/was pretty good. played pool in the afternoon with darryl/pewi/daniel/tianen.. and i must say i've improved alot!! =) the benefits of playing pool everyday in camp.. hehe. i can make more shots that i usually can't, and .. im just playing better on a whole. woot woot.

and got to talk with bestie quite abit too . =) never fails to cheer me up.


but the weekend ill be looking forward to will be 2 weeks time! if nothign goes wrong, i'll have hello alotta fun that weekend. and be able to photospam =) hahaha. got lotsa appointments lined up. but first.. i have no idea whether i'll even be able to come out that weekend.

cos on 2nd Oct ill be posted to my permanent company... so ill join my men or sth. the problem is , they're on deployment (guarding the airport all that) at tha tmoment.. so if i have to join them...... means i cant come back!! :( :(
but if we're lucky then maybe.. wont join str away.. wait for them to come back. zz. i hope it's this case. otherwise my whole weekend will be ruined. ;(

alright, im really tired i needa sleep. it's like 1AM now and ive to wake up at 645am tmr to go play for worship. chowz.

how do you resist a book like this

I just read one of the most poetic, beautiful, sweet paragraphs in my book life. Out of context it may seem nothing or it may seem very nice, i dunno. but it's really poetic. I wont give any context cos it would spoil the story.. but i'm sure it's still nice standalone:

Excerpt from 'New Moon' by Stephenie Meyer:

(Edward speaking) : " Before you Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason ... and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything"


:o :o :o

It's just so.. poetic. i'm so gonna memorize this and many other lines and keep them in my artillery. =X hahahaha. Mr Romanticcc.

The Popularity Cycle

ah, the weekend is here again. this week was relatively short.. or slack? haha. lectures all the way more or less. some PT in the morning.. frisbee.. soccer.. nothing very shiong. i <3 my unit.

anyway, ive been thinking about this interesting concept of mine called 'The Popularity Cycle'.
It's not really an original theory, but rather a common-sense logic thing, which nonetheless has amused me.

My theory is that once you get popular, you will remain popular, due to a chain of events that inevitably keeps you popular.

Sounds confusing? Let me give you an example - celeb bloggers e.g. Xiaxue.
Ok, i've nothing against her and i do visit her blog often, but she's a classic example of the popularity cycle.
She rose to fame several years ago, when she made many controversial blog entries that led to widespread discussion. Some of these include topics such as handicapped toilets usage, KL being unsafe, etc.

Then because she is popular, more people heard about her, and began to visit her blog (thus stimulating the hits on her page) . Newspapers featured her, forums talked about her, all because she was popular before, and this subsequently led to a continued rise in popularity, even when she wasnt making any significant posts. Hence the cycle.


Another example would be my Mario video , which started becoming popular because i posted it in a forums and people started talking about it. (not to mention my shameless advertising of it :p )
Then BECAUSE it was made known, the chain effect began, and people started telling other people about it. My video was even posted on several forums which i have never heard on (which also generate the most hits) and the chain effect continued.

Can you see? it became more popular precisely because it was popular. such a cycle! that now my video which isn't even THAT interesting gets views everyday and a comment every 2 days. it even beats danchoo's top viewed video, when my video was posted after his had already generated over 50k views.

The wonderful thing is -- i aint doing a thing! it's not like i'm making continuous edits or improvements to the video. it just keeps being viewed for some reason.


alright, that was a whole lot of ranting about a small thing. but it does teach me how to get famous - it's like starting a fire. i just need somethign to kickstart my fame, find the right spark, and then i just have to fan the fire, to keep it going with the wonderful Popularity Cycle.

Who wants to let me save him from a falling building/tree/pole/tallheavyscaryobject?

Twilight

whee. weekend is here. and gone soon.

just went out with some jc friends.. ate at HK Cafe @ suntec.. zz go all the way tehre for that when kovan all that have. pam la.
well it was fun though. got to talk to old frenns. though there were no army guys! so kinda weird not having someone to talk to about army stuff. cos john and joshua are both police those cheaters. their life is damn slack la!

anw, ive been reading alot lately, after The Time Traveller's Wife i read The Assassin (which is a sequel of 'The American', a book i read before i went taiwan), then i just finished Twilight.

Which is damn good can!!

It's a romance novel about a vampire and a girl. and .. well the descriptive and narrative is very interesting and compelling. The vampire (Edward Cullen.. whom winsome/gaby are crazy about. well maybe just gaby) is described as perfectly handsome and very alluring.
it's a tinge overdone, such that some parts are quite exaggerated, which i think is intentional - like the vampire is SO attractive that everytime he touches Bella (the girl) her heart jumps (a running joke for most of the book) .. and he breathe into her neck then she faint.. blaba.

but still, it's very good. i cant wait to read the other 3 books in the series.. + the movie =)


Ah, playing drums tmr. gonna be fun =)

hmmm

hmm, i should be able to come out this weekend. apparently the range is NEXT week .. which isn't exactly good news, it's still bad news, (since a weekend is burnt), but not as bad as this week i guess.

at least i get to play drums this week again! woot.

aight i dunno why i'm updating so often when i dont think ppl read my blog much. oh well. i just love blogging =) chowz

i am so sad

aight, i can blog this cos im still on course .. so im SUPPOSED to be able to go home everyday but my stupid unit make us report back at 9pm ... so effectively we can't. but those who dont mind just going home for 1-2 hours (e.g. me) can still go back.

i'm so sad! i heard that this sat/sun we'll have range!! if i elaborate i may get arrested so i wont, but it simply means i cant book out!!! WHYYY. :( :( :(

this previous weekend already felt so short and sad and now they take away my next weekend. zz. seriously, army can just go kick itself in the 2#%^#.

aight, im gonna go watch Psych or something in my remaining 45 minutes at home. sigh.

another sunday is gone.

it just comes and goes.
all week long i look forward to sunday.and it just passes me by.
like a gust of wind.
a passing leaf, carried by the breeze.
an angsana seed, floating in the air
It just passes by.

Oh well, another week to go then.
another week closer to freedom.
it's so far but i can taste it
it's so far away indeed.

Sigh, played boring soccer in church instead of the usual bball cos some older ppl came down. din rain some more la! i conclude that god is a soccer fan and doesnt like bball . :(
Talking abt that, i read some funny joke about this before. lemme try to roughly retell it:

"The manager of Chelsea died and went to Heaven. when he reached heaven, God showed him his house - it was a small, old, rickety little house, weeds growing everywhere, and some chelsea banners on the sides.
Chelsea Manager: "why do i have such a lousy house?"
God: -shrugs-. "riches don't matter here"

As they walked on, Chelsea Manager noticed in the distance a huge mansion with a long driveway. It was beautiful and well furnished and the garden was well kept. There were Manchester United flags hanging everywhere.
Chelsea Manager: "Oh, this must be Alex Ferguson's house"
God: " oh no, this is my house"

~~

ha.
i thought it was kinda funny.

anw, some random pics taken today:



winsome trying to act shy. she actually really loves to camwhore.



see. =) This is the nicest pic i thought but she said her fringe not nice, blabla.


she still not satisfied
so take again



This is the weirdest looking la. She looks kinda weird and my smile is kinda weird. but she liked this the best and sent it to her phone. weirdwinsome. WW.




finally got a pic with gabyy.. who i think will be pretty fun to camwhore with. never got the chance today though. notice anything weird in this pic though?
let me blow it up:


look like ghost!


=) ha. ok. time to go.
btw, did you notice that my hair was gelled? :P

ilyw

if anyone wondered what 'ilyw' means and have asked me on msn, no, i dont have a new gf whose name starts with w. ilyw = i love you weekend!

well, first week at my new unit wasn't that bad, cos we are on course.. and this course is a 7day 95% lecture-based one.. so damn slack =) hahaha. then the course started on wed so for mon and tues we had virtually nothing on.
so we just slept and ate. =D good life. hahaha.

this course im on now also quite fun.. if u wanna know what it's about ask me cos i cant say here otherwise ill get arrested. haha. but it's fun and slack. i like =D


ah, time for a quick break over the weekend.. will try to play as much as possible . heh. and play with my beloved phone. which i misseddd. spam photos? i dunno. who wanna take picture with me