so annoying!!
ok so after 24 grueling hours of COS duty i finally reach home on Sunday morning .. only to find that the internet wasn't working!! my brother tried fiddling with everything but couldn't fix it.. so dammit!!! no internet on the ONLY day that i come home the whole week!!!
so i was just.. randomly clicking and trying Internet Explorer every 30 minutes hoping for some miracle which never happened. in the end just ended up trying to get chris' hard disks to work and after fixing and unfixing the USB cables 12390812 times i finally got them to work!
so now i have 4 new games on my PSP, 20++ songs (ok maybe more. but.. i just picked the songs that looked nice. lol yes, LOOKED nice. by the title/artiste) and 'Step Up' which i've already watched but i just uploaded it anyway so that i could do SOMETHING with the com.
i tell you ah, without my trusty PSP, my life would be miserable and i would be severely depressed now since Internet wasn't working.
Walao! i'm really damn reliant on internet. everything i do with the com is INternet related. chat on MSN (i realised that i talk to about 5% of my contact list. what's the use of having so many people added when i dont chat with them? hmm. ) , play warcraft 3, dl new games for my psp, dl new movies for my.. erm, psp too.. (omg am i gonna get arrested)
apply for uni.. research on stuff.. check up on movies.. show timings.. check up on random info..
OMG ALL INTERNET RELATED. seriously i tell you the whole world is going to collapse and go into depression if one day some brilliant hacker comes up with a bug that kills the Internet. all even cause a temporary blackout. then even those who want to commit suicide want to google 'how to overcome suicidal thoughts' also cannot google. kinda ironic isnt it. the internet dies causing people to be suicidal and they want to google how to be not suicidal but cant.
ha ok fine maybe i exaggerated. but think about it! how much of your daily lives involves the internet? by reading this you're already using the internet. doing project work? yes internet. blogging? yes internet.
We are SO reliant on the internet.
and mine better get fixed.
Sunday 29 June 2008
Saturday 28 June 2008
uncertainty
here i am, stuck in camp as i have COS duty on a Saturday. zz. i'll only get to book out tmr morning. but it's alright, i have my trusty PSP loaded with OTH episodes.. and i must say the latest season is quite good!
With some new additions to the cast includes hailey and nathan's little son, jamie... WHO IS THE CUTEST THING EVER!
( ok i think it appears a little pixelated cos i resized it. link here http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/a/ac/Othjamie.jpg/250px-Othjamie.jpg)
Isn't he cute!! he has the squeaky cute voice and facial expressions are hilarious. He also has excellent funny lines. And you know those really good actors who can express emotion using slight facial twitches? He can do that!! he can look really sad, really happy, disappointed, etc just by using facial twitches. talented l'l kid.
it's still done in the classic OTH style, with lucas/whoever's voiceover in the beginning at the end sounding all philosophical and all. Which also made me feel the same way.. in the mooood.
One thing about me is that.. i'm not one of big emotion. when i am happy, i dont exclaim out loud and go all jumpy and cheery. when i'm sad i dont' bawl. when i'm in pain i dont yell and holler. somehow, all the emotion is just capped.
as a result, sometimes i dont express my gratitute and joy enough when i receive gifts, or someone does something to make me really happy and/or touched. Offhand, i can just randomly remember 2 such incidents.
One was when danchoo got together some ppl and bought me a bball, after i casually mentioned i wanted a bball when chatting with him on ICQ (yes, back when MSN wasn't popular yet and ICQ was the craze. remember the 'UH OH' sound? :) )
Another was when my best fren came all the way to boonkeng mrt during my A levels and brought me a 'exam survival package'(as she called it) which is basically this box which was stuffed with snacks and some drinks and a pen to basically.. keep me going.
I was truly touched by both these gestures but i never like.. exclaim 'WOW THANKS!!' or like.. jump up and down for joy or anything.
well, this week i accomplished something which should have made me jump and down for joy.. if i wasn't so dead tired that i was gonna faint. I passed my SOC!! with a timing of 9.48 =)
Ok firstly, that timing isn't very good, passing timing is 10 minutes. but i'm telling you it's difficult as hell . for me at least. it was really a total physical and mental struggle to finish it.
And when i finished it, i was SO tired that when i went to get a cup of water, i placed the cup under the dispenser and filled it up. When i picked up the cup - i didn't have enough strength to lift it and it toppled! i'm not exaggerating ok! it was so freaky. i couldnt even lift a cup of water.
but yay, i passed and that means after i clear my IPPT next week (which i should.. i think), i more or less passed this course. just have to survive through grandslam and taiwan :S
And after which, the title of this post comes in. Uncertainty.
Where am i going to go?
Seriously, this has bugged me since 6 weeks ago. and will probably still beg me for another 6 weeks. i wish i could get some definitive answers. or that God will finally answer one of my prayers about this and allow me to have a pleasant life.
With some new additions to the cast includes hailey and nathan's little son, jamie... WHO IS THE CUTEST THING EVER!
( ok i think it appears a little pixelated cos i resized it. link here http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/a/ac/Othjamie.jpg/250px-Othjamie.jpg)
Isn't he cute!! he has the squeaky cute voice and facial expressions are hilarious. He also has excellent funny lines. And you know those really good actors who can express emotion using slight facial twitches? He can do that!! he can look really sad, really happy, disappointed, etc just by using facial twitches. talented l'l kid.
it's still done in the classic OTH style, with lucas/whoever's voiceover in the beginning at the end sounding all philosophical and all. Which also made me feel the same way.. in the mooood.
One thing about me is that.. i'm not one of big emotion. when i am happy, i dont exclaim out loud and go all jumpy and cheery. when i'm sad i dont' bawl. when i'm in pain i dont yell and holler. somehow, all the emotion is just capped.
as a result, sometimes i dont express my gratitute and joy enough when i receive gifts, or someone does something to make me really happy and/or touched. Offhand, i can just randomly remember 2 such incidents.
One was when danchoo got together some ppl and bought me a bball, after i casually mentioned i wanted a bball when chatting with him on ICQ (yes, back when MSN wasn't popular yet and ICQ was the craze. remember the 'UH OH' sound? :) )
Another was when my best fren came all the way to boonkeng mrt during my A levels and brought me a 'exam survival package'(as she called it) which is basically this box which was stuffed with snacks and some drinks and a pen to basically.. keep me going.
I was truly touched by both these gestures but i never like.. exclaim 'WOW THANKS!!' or like.. jump up and down for joy or anything.
well, this week i accomplished something which should have made me jump and down for joy.. if i wasn't so dead tired that i was gonna faint. I passed my SOC!! with a timing of 9.48 =)
Ok firstly, that timing isn't very good, passing timing is 10 minutes. but i'm telling you it's difficult as hell . for me at least. it was really a total physical and mental struggle to finish it.
And when i finished it, i was SO tired that when i went to get a cup of water, i placed the cup under the dispenser and filled it up. When i picked up the cup - i didn't have enough strength to lift it and it toppled! i'm not exaggerating ok! it was so freaky. i couldnt even lift a cup of water.
but yay, i passed and that means after i clear my IPPT next week (which i should.. i think), i more or less passed this course. just have to survive through grandslam and taiwan :S
And after which, the title of this post comes in. Uncertainty.
Where am i going to go?
Seriously, this has bugged me since 6 weeks ago. and will probably still beg me for another 6 weeks. i wish i could get some definitive answers. or that God will finally answer one of my prayers about this and allow me to have a pleasant life.
ok, another 16 hours for this duty to be over. i can't wait to go home .. and enjoy my short 10 hour weekend -_-
(on a side note, i realised my entries have been extremely wordy lately. well, army makes you think. and .. i express myself best in writing, like one of my teachers once said. and only being able to access the com during the weekends.. the expression just kinda flows out yknow? i could probably blog a 128047891 word long post if i didn't limit myself. i could go on and on . :P )
Sunday 22 June 2008
going
In about 5 minutes, or after i finish this blog entry, i'm going to leave my house to book in to camp. :( stupid army, have to go in at 8pm today. zzz
Anyway, i'm glad _ 's not angry. at least now i go back with an ease of mind.
i'm not going to church next week :( have COS duty (sit in office and answer phone call) from sat morning to sunday morning. so... :( grr. i wanna play drums
talking about drums, i screwed up during worship today!! ughhhh. missed about 80% of my fills for the first 2 songs.. dunno why but dont have the fee--ling. nervous? a little. never play so long already ma, confidence level not high. hope to improve back to my original average level :/
alvin chow is back! he's so nice. he came up to me and said he liked my playing and complimented me although i screwed up so much. I mean, he is a drummer himself, he would definitely have heard the screwups. but he somehow phrased what he said to make it as un-patronizing and nice as he could.
I think he said something like.. 'i like your feel. like the sound u make' or something like that. that is not like 'you played well!!' which is bullshit cos i screwed up so much.
And i think lincoln is a really good speaker! his analogies are SO relevant, or at least he caters it for the youths. he infuses a tinge of humour here and there to keep people awake, and uses relevant modern examples for us to draw parallels to. The prison break example was ownage la.
okok i really gtg otherwise i'm gonna be late BYE PEOPLE.
Anyway, i'm glad _ 's not angry. at least now i go back with an ease of mind.
i'm not going to church next week :( have COS duty (sit in office and answer phone call) from sat morning to sunday morning. so... :( grr. i wanna play drums
talking about drums, i screwed up during worship today!! ughhhh. missed about 80% of my fills for the first 2 songs.. dunno why but dont have the fee--ling. nervous? a little. never play so long already ma, confidence level not high. hope to improve back to my original average level :/
alvin chow is back! he's so nice. he came up to me and said he liked my playing and complimented me although i screwed up so much. I mean, he is a drummer himself, he would definitely have heard the screwups. but he somehow phrased what he said to make it as un-patronizing and nice as he could.
I think he said something like.. 'i like your feel. like the sound u make' or something like that. that is not like 'you played well!!' which is bullshit cos i screwed up so much.
And i think lincoln is a really good speaker! his analogies are SO relevant, or at least he caters it for the youths. he infuses a tinge of humour here and there to keep people awake, and uses relevant modern examples for us to draw parallels to. The prison break example was ownage la.
okok i really gtg otherwise i'm gonna be late BYE PEOPLE.
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