superhuman control

what could have been a very long weekend became.. well, just a long weekend.

was supposed to book out yesterday afternoon.. but my OC kept all the sergeants back cos we couldnt answer some of his ridiculous questions on the various places we were guarding next week (yupyup, i'm going on deployment again)
("if i told you there was an incident on belt 3 at terminal 1, whats the fastest way to get there?." -_- yea sure sif YOU'll know the answer either. )

wow, the moment he said that we were not booking out yday (the rest of the company booked out at 4pm) .. i felt the TWAAANG on my heart string.. like a guitar string yknow. when you just pinch it and release it quickly it goes TWAAANG.
then kenny next to me started cursing and swearing after the OC left.. going 'i had things planned, i had things planned'. well yea so do all of us.

which brings me to my point - i was surprisingly calm.

it wasn't that i was NOT angry, and didn't mind staying in like the PCs (who tried to defuse the situation by talking to us calmly and trying to explain it) i was angry! it felt like my heart was a volcano and it was going to erupt. like wtf, we were waiting the whole morning doing nothing (well, besides SOC test, which i failed with a time of 10.16 though i ran my best but thats not the focal point of this entry) to book out then suddenly drop this bomb on us.

but i think i have a special power, yknow like superheroes do. Like in Heroes, where Hiro can stop time and Claire can regenerate and Nathan can fly. i can control my emotions pretty darn well. Such that even when i am super -insertemotionhere-, i can give an expressionless face and look normal (or like i'm stoning, whatever)

so i didn't even complain much yday, (well ok not to my frens there, but i DID whine to bestie via sms, but that's what she's for, for me to whine to :p ha) and tried to focus on learning more about the airport (yes, i'm going there next week)


i also recall one incident in secondary school when there was a medium sized thumbtack on the desk, sharp point facing up. i was walking around then decided to prop myself up to sit on the desk, and i didn't see it..
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so i just slammed my palm on the desk(thumbtack) for support and leapt onto the table.


As you can imagine, the thumbtack pierced right into the fleshy part of my palm.

ZOMG PAIN.

But guess what? i didn't even exclaim out loud. i was just shocked by it and after the split second of realising what just happened i just yanked it out. somehow, it didn't bleed, but there was the pin sized hole there.
can you pierce a thumbtack into your palm and not make a sound or show any expression?


then you know like, say in school, you are laughing about some joke your friend told or ... you are just playing around in class. Then your ultra-uber-fierce discipline master /principal suddenly walks past.. then you need to suppress your laughter and give a straight face?
I AM DAMN GOOD AT THAT CAN?
i can just .. stop laughing. even though my brain and my heart and my body is laughing, my face is just.. straight.



and you know the game 'Honey if you love me please smile!' When one person is 'IT' then he/she goes up to any person and says 'honey if you love me please smile' and tries to do whatever he/she cans to make that person smile/laugh. This can be in the form of funny faces.. say stupid stuff, act stupidly.

I'm a pro at that game too ok. :p
seriously, i've never lost. there was one time during some BAY outing when we played this game at the beach. then in the group everyone already smiled somehow except for me. Then they got the whole group to try to make me smile.. but nothing could stir my emotionless face. -beams proudly-
i'm quite proud of that ok. (i did come very close to smiling when victor did some face twitching thing which resembled someone bursting into laughter)

I think the only time i'll lose this game is when i have a gf then she comes and says the game name to me. then of course i must smile right! later she angry how.


so i conclude, i have superhuman control. =) oops, did i just smile?