guo xin nian

ah, as i bask in the freedom of.. freedom and sit back comfortably in my computer chair not expecting a 'HEADS OUT' from the commanders downstairs or checking the time to countdown the minutes to lights out, i can't help but smile.

chinese new year brings great joy to kids who anticipate the numerous hongbaos they're gonna get, unhappiness to married couples who have to fork out those numerous hongbaos, and elation for NSF who get the much appreciated break from army.
of course, those who have guard duty and field camp are exempted from the elation.

i look forward to saturday when i'll be meeting amanda and spending the day with her, but at the same time i don't as the next day will be sunday and that will be when i have to book in. it's like the last meal of a criminal on death row - he looks forward to it and not.
ah, that was quite an extreme analogy wasn't it? well i'll be stuck in Tekong for 2 weeks after booking in, due to my field camp which starts on the 15th, the very same day that is rumoured that the 'A' level results would come out.

ah, the dream of walking back to school with amanda's hand in mine is quickly shattered and relegated to just that - a dream.

IPPT is next week too, and if i fail that, i'll have to stay in the subsequent weekend after fieldcamp for extra training -_- i honestly doubt i'll fail unless i get a cramp while running or injure myself or something. I should have no worries then? No, what if i get a cramp while running or injure myself? As long as there's a possibility of failure, there's an inkling of worry.


oh well, i shall isolate myself from army the next few days, albeit running to train up myself at night. after all, the moments of civilian-hood are limited and short, and i should enjoy every second of it. time is even more precious than before, more precious that money, more precious than anything.

If only time could come to a standstill when we want it to. -cue ChronoGuard from Jasper Fforde's books -

(Go check out some of his books if you haven't. i wouldn't describe them as 'logical nonsense' as amanda does (and apparently weiqin does too).. more of a mystery/thriller in an unreal world)

Happy Chinese New Year to all.