when darkness turns to light
it ends tonight
it ends tonight
ah, it's kinda weird seeing civilisation only once a week. when i travel to places i haven't been in a while, i see new BUILDINGS being set up or buildings being torn down. and the area around my house suddenly became more handicap-friendly with railings all over and those ramp paths for wheelchairs
man, one thing i thank god for is my best friend. chris is really the.. role model of a best friend. If there's a national best friend campaign ill recommend her for it. haha. i really hope she adjusts to her school though. :/
i have a new ambition - i'm gonna train my warcraft3 skills. My goal is to reach the top 16 or 25 of any competition (e.g. some cyber gaming competition outside) , and maybe top 100 on battlenet (i'm currently 400++ )
It wont be easy, i have to improve alot more. and not as if ill be getting alot of time to play if i go to SISPEC. but it's a long term goal! like maybe.. within 2-3 years? =) rawr.
oh, and i have the most irritating thing on earth. HEAT RASH. ok maybe it's not heat rash cos as i google the treatments the symptoms seem to be different from what i have.
Ok i have like slight itchiness all the time. then at random times, usually when i just start exercising or get my body heated up.. WHAM. i feel like 20371208947 red ants just bit me on my back/neck areas. *)(@$&@Q painful can. and it comes in random waves. then sometimes it lasts for quite long. ill try not to scratch and pour water or sth. zz
pray for me that this rash will go away. it's killing me. has been there since field camp which means about 2 weeks!! :(
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Sunday, 24 February 2008
and i'm alone.
the sky is grey
a storm is coming
the end is near
will it pass?
i hold on
to the umbrella
it never hurts
to be prepared
the storm will leave
houses overturned
ruin lives
ruin mine
this all doesn't rhyme
i didn't try
i can't rhyme
when i'm down.
a storm is coming
the end is near
will it pass?
i hold on
to the umbrella
it never hurts
to be prepared
the storm will leave
houses overturned
ruin lives
ruin mine
this all doesn't rhyme
i didn't try
i can't rhyme
when i'm down.
Saturday, 23 February 2008
swirl
when thoughts whirl and swirl in your head, sometimes you just need to stop talking, walking, stop moving, stop.. thinking, to let the thoughts settle. the whirling and swirling of thoughts makes you woozy as you try to keep your head steady and continue doing what you're doing.
this occurs when a particular bit of news is dropped onto you which leaves a certain impact on you. and you try hard to dig deep for an adequate response, a suitable way of replying.. but come up short. the whirling and swirling is too much to take.
i got such a particular bit of news today when i was out with amanda. it left me reeling literally. i had to walk off and lean my head for awhile to let it settle in. no, she didnt break up with me. she loves me ok. (i think?) rawr. =X it's just.. something private that i dont' wanna post up here, but it did leave me reeling.
now, 4-5 hours after that bombshell, the whirls and swirls have settled down to a muck. all is not clear, so i cannot be at ease. but the wooziness is gone. and.. i can't say i fully accept the piece of news yet though i did tell her i accepted it. i can, just that.. it'll take awhile to .. settle in. though i really hope it can be reversed. sigh.
a particular song i like is 'Rescue' by Newsong. a line i have repeated countless number of times in army:
So won't You give me strength
to make it through somehow
(i've never been more homesick than now)
(the line in brackets isn't relevant to this entry but i do repeat it in army)
cryptic eh? aint that always the case :)
on a happier note, lemme quote a paragraph from her blog that made me smile:
"the next one's even better. alan's in army, and going off for field camp, so i wasn't expecting anything at all. but he already had it all planned out. he actually sent timo to deliver a vday package to me at the bank. =) that really made my day! yup!"
yknow when you do something nice or sweet for somebody, the least you expect (or what you want) is for the person to appreciate it and like it. and i made her day with it =) wheeee. :D
i guess the dream i wrote about will not be realised. :/
this occurs when a particular bit of news is dropped onto you which leaves a certain impact on you. and you try hard to dig deep for an adequate response, a suitable way of replying.. but come up short. the whirling and swirling is too much to take.
i got such a particular bit of news today when i was out with amanda. it left me reeling literally. i had to walk off and lean my head for awhile to let it settle in. no, she didnt break up with me. she loves me ok. (i think?) rawr. =X it's just.. something private that i dont' wanna post up here, but it did leave me reeling.
now, 4-5 hours after that bombshell, the whirls and swirls have settled down to a muck. all is not clear, so i cannot be at ease. but the wooziness is gone. and.. i can't say i fully accept the piece of news yet though i did tell her i accepted it. i can, just that.. it'll take awhile to .. settle in. though i really hope it can be reversed. sigh.
a particular song i like is 'Rescue' by Newsong. a line i have repeated countless number of times in army:
So won't You give me strength
to make it through somehow
(i've never been more homesick than now)
(the line in brackets isn't relevant to this entry but i do repeat it in army)
cryptic eh? aint that always the case :)
on a happier note, lemme quote a paragraph from her blog that made me smile:
"the next one's even better. alan's in army, and going off for field camp, so i wasn't expecting anything at all. but he already had it all planned out. he actually sent timo to deliver a vday package to me at the bank. =) that really made my day! yup!"
yknow when you do something nice or sweet for somebody, the least you expect (or what you want) is for the person to appreciate it and like it. and i made her day with it =) wheeee. :D
i guess the dream i wrote about will not be realised. :/
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