when thoughts whirl and swirl in your head, sometimes you just need to stop talking, walking, stop moving, stop.. thinking, to let the thoughts settle. the whirling and swirling of thoughts makes you woozy as you try to keep your head steady and continue doing what you're doing.
this occurs when a particular bit of news is dropped onto you which leaves a certain impact on you. and you try hard to dig deep for an adequate response, a suitable way of replying.. but come up short. the whirling and swirling is too much to take.
i got such a particular bit of news today when i was out with amanda. it left me reeling literally. i had to walk off and lean my head for awhile to let it settle in. no, she didnt break up with me. she loves me ok. (i think?) rawr. =X it's just.. something private that i dont' wanna post up here, but it did leave me reeling.
now, 4-5 hours after that bombshell, the whirls and swirls have settled down to a muck. all is not clear, so i cannot be at ease. but the wooziness is gone. and.. i can't say i fully accept the piece of news yet though i did tell her i accepted it. i can, just that.. it'll take awhile to .. settle in. though i really hope it can be reversed. sigh.
a particular song i like is 'Rescue' by Newsong. a line i have repeated countless number of times in army:
So won't You give me strength
to make it through somehow
(i've never been more homesick than now)
(the line in brackets isn't relevant to this entry but i do repeat it in army)
cryptic eh? aint that always the case :)
on a happier note, lemme quote a paragraph from her blog that made me smile:
"the next one's even better. alan's in army, and going off for field camp, so i wasn't expecting anything at all. but he already had it all planned out. he actually sent timo to deliver a vday package to me at the bank. =) that really made my day! yup!"
yknow when you do something nice or sweet for somebody, the least you expect (or what you want) is for the person to appreciate it and like it. and i made her day with it =) wheeee. :D
i guess the dream i wrote about will not be realised. :/
Saturday, 23 February 2008
Friday, 22 February 2008
back from field camp
hi all. im back from my 5 day 4 night field camp. which was pretty exhausting. not that the activities were all super strenous or what. it's just that.. having no rest and little proper uninterrupted sleep at night leaves your body weak. like for the last 2 days i was sleeping in a hole i dug in the ground. imagine how comfortable that is. -_-
zz then my training schedule is super screwed up. for other ppl usually after field camp they have one day of rest, where it's all lectures or sth. for me? nono, we have SOC (standard obstacle course) which was pretty tiring. and i got this huge burst blister on my palm. the size of a small fingernail.
AND. this morning we had 12km route march. -_- zzzz. a route march is basically walking in this attire called SBO. let's calculate the weight
helmet - 1KG
Load Bearing Vest - 2-3 KG (to put it simply, it's a vest you wear around yourself)
Uniform - 0.5-1KG
Rifle - 2-3 KG
Field Pack - 7-10KG
= about 15 KG
And so we walk on and on and on. uphill mainly. freaking tiring. and it left me with a giganormous blister on the underside of my right foot, so it's freaking hard to walk. ugh.
AND, this coming monday i have the 16km route march. how awesome.
sigh ok ill go cheer myself up with prison break and lost. cya.
zz then my training schedule is super screwed up. for other ppl usually after field camp they have one day of rest, where it's all lectures or sth. for me? nono, we have SOC (standard obstacle course) which was pretty tiring. and i got this huge burst blister on my palm. the size of a small fingernail.
AND. this morning we had 12km route march. -_- zzzz. a route march is basically walking in this attire called SBO. let's calculate the weight
helmet - 1KG
Load Bearing Vest - 2-3 KG (to put it simply, it's a vest you wear around yourself)
Uniform - 0.5-1KG
Rifle - 2-3 KG
Field Pack - 7-10KG
= about 15 KG
And so we walk on and on and on. uphill mainly. freaking tiring. and it left me with a giganormous blister on the underside of my right foot, so it's freaking hard to walk. ugh.
AND, this coming monday i have the 16km route march. how awesome.
sigh ok ill go cheer myself up with prison break and lost. cya.
Saturday, 9 February 2008
food trail and ah long
Just reached home after a day with amanda! Hmm, didnt get to take as many pictures as i'd like to. but nvm la, at least got some pictures. so.. relaxing on the eyes! haa.
We went on a food trail! basically both of us came up with a list of things we wanted to eat.. like our food cravings. Then we planned out a route and then proceeded to have those items =) hee. so.. here we go.
1) Chicken Pie @ dao hui stall in Serangoon
We met at dao hui stall in Serangoon, and she wanted to eat the chicken pie there. It's not really that nice.. too small too. Not sure of the price cos she bought it and i just took some bites of it.
The notebook behind is my list, the paper on the right is hers. Haha yes she brought a travel map.
2) Fried Carrot Cake and Sugar Cane juice @ foodcourt in AMK ( $3 and $1.20)
We were actually in AMK looking for some goreng pisang which was on amanda's list.. but the shops were closed! so sad can. all closed to go bai nian or sth. zz. so in the end i suggested we just eat something there or else it's a wasted trip.. so i bought the carrot cake and she ordered sugar cane.
I dont like sugar cane for a particular reason. But i just drank until left abit, then i told amanda why. and she got slightly disgusted too. wahaha.
3) Twister Fries and McFlurry @ McDonalds ($3? and.. $2? ugh forgot)
dont they look delicious!? I LOVE twister fries =)
There was too little oreo in the Mcflurry! there should be moreee.
i was telling amanda that Oreo is super useful. It's used in like so many things la! mcflurry.. oreo cheesecake.. even those bubble tea shops have a special Oreo menu of the various blends. The creator of Oreo must be pretty rich if he patented it.
4) Pretty-looking Doughnut @ Missy Donut ($1.40)
Amanda wanted a pretty -looking donut, just for the visual. When i saw this i suddenly had a craving for it, cos last time bestie gave me a donut that had white chocolate like this on top and chocolate filling inside that was really nice, so i thought of that (in fact, is it the same one? hmm)
It's so pretty right! Doesn't look like a donut does it. Was delicious =)
5) Rock Melon @ Foodcourt in PS ($1.60)
Ok repeat after me: RIIIIP OFFFF!
omg $1.60 for one small slice of fruit? It's alot smaller than it looks. Even if it was imported from the tropical islands of Hawaii and vacuum sealed to preserve its freshness.... it's kinda expensive aint it??
Amanda who wanted it was suddenly deterred when she saw the price.. but i insisted we still get it cos i kinda wanted it too. The upside was that it was sweet and nice. But still! $$$!
6) Pasta Shrimp Cheeze @ KFC ($3.00)
Kinda nice but i don't think it's worth 3 bucks. The taste of the floury crispy deep-fried exterior is too overwhelming too - takes away the shrimp/pasta/cheese taste on the inside.
7) Oreo Cheesecake @ Cafe Cartel ($4.60 [$4.90 after GST -_-] )
The cheesecake part was a tad too lemony tasting and I couldn't taste the oreo. was still nice overall, but i prefer the plain cheesecake taste and.. more oreo plstnx. They asked me if i had student pass. =) I still look like a student :p
8) Mudpie with IceCream @ New York New York ($6.90 [$8.00 after service charge + GST])
This is so freaking delicious. I couldn't resist and took like two bites of it then remembered that we hadn't taken a photo of it. But seriously! The chocolate part is the richest chocolate you'll ever taste, and the chocolatey sauce on top (which amanda insists is milo powder + abit of water) accents the effect. The vanilla icecream allows your tastebuds to switch to a blander but still nice flavour so that you wont get overwhelmed by the richness of the chocolate, but allows a delicate balance of delicious chocolatey-dessert.
Nicest dessert ever! Well worth the money, go try it !
a shot taken with flash and at a different angle. Man.. i wanna eat it again.
9) Mushroom Soup @ Soup Spoon ($7.10)
Their soups are really nice and tasty. But amanda ordered a grande one .. which is like medium size. Which i thought was a little too much. The mushroom taste just got a little stifling after awhile. I liked it up to the point when i was feeling too.. overwhelmed by the mushroom taste. She finished the rest.
I think i preferred the soup we had the last time we were there.. i can't rem what's it's called. i think beef sth. i'm not sure.
and that concludes our food trail! i wish we had more food on the list though. I wanna go food trail again! hehe. see how.
(if you're really observant, you'll figure out that this photo obviously wasn't taken today. we forgot to take a pic :/ ugh. ) (well actually we did but mandyy thought she looked weird so she deleted -_- )
~~
we also watched Ah Long Pte Ltd.. which seriously isn't very good. There is no real plot, the flow isn't there. It has its funny moments, but.. it's so NOT a family show. It's.. riddled with sexual connotations. Like almost the whole thing. tsktsk.
shouldve watched the jaychou bball movie. ugh.
oh well, time to bookin tmr. happy valentine's day in advance to all. and happy A level results collection too. :/ the next time i come out will be.. 23rd Feb. holy cow that's long. :(
bye~
p.s. i tried to color code the food names to differentiate which were chosen by amanda and which were chosen by me.. but blogger seriously f---s up everything and after 10 mins of trying to fix it i've given up, hence some blue some black some pink. Items 1, 2b, 4, 5 were picked by amanda, the rest by me. yup.
We went on a food trail! basically both of us came up with a list of things we wanted to eat.. like our food cravings. Then we planned out a route and then proceeded to have those items =) hee. so.. here we go.
1) Chicken Pie @ dao hui stall in Serangoon
We met at dao hui stall in Serangoon, and she wanted to eat the chicken pie there. It's not really that nice.. too small too. Not sure of the price cos she bought it and i just took some bites of it.
The notebook behind is my list, the paper on the right is hers. Haha yes she brought a travel map.
2) Fried Carrot Cake and Sugar Cane juice @ foodcourt in AMK ( $3 and $1.20)
We were actually in AMK looking for some goreng pisang which was on amanda's list.. but the shops were closed! so sad can. all closed to go bai nian or sth. zz. so in the end i suggested we just eat something there or else it's a wasted trip.. so i bought the carrot cake and she ordered sugar cane.
I dont like sugar cane for a particular reason. But i just drank until left abit, then i told amanda why. and she got slightly disgusted too. wahaha.
3) Twister Fries and McFlurry @ McDonalds ($3? and.. $2? ugh forgot)
dont they look delicious!? I LOVE twister fries =)
There was too little oreo in the Mcflurry! there should be moreee.
i was telling amanda that Oreo is super useful. It's used in like so many things la! mcflurry.. oreo cheesecake.. even those bubble tea shops have a special Oreo menu of the various blends. The creator of Oreo must be pretty rich if he patented it.
4) Pretty-looking Doughnut @ Missy Donut ($1.40)
Amanda wanted a pretty -looking donut, just for the visual. When i saw this i suddenly had a craving for it, cos last time bestie gave me a donut that had white chocolate like this on top and chocolate filling inside that was really nice, so i thought of that (in fact, is it the same one? hmm)
It's so pretty right! Doesn't look like a donut does it. Was delicious =)
5) Rock Melon @ Foodcourt in PS ($1.60)
Ok repeat after me: RIIIIP OFFFF!
omg $1.60 for one small slice of fruit? It's alot smaller than it looks. Even if it was imported from the tropical islands of Hawaii and vacuum sealed to preserve its freshness.... it's kinda expensive aint it??
Amanda who wanted it was suddenly deterred when she saw the price.. but i insisted we still get it cos i kinda wanted it too. The upside was that it was sweet and nice. But still! $$$!
6) Pasta Shrimp Cheeze @ KFC ($3.00)
Kinda nice but i don't think it's worth 3 bucks. The taste of the floury crispy deep-fried exterior is too overwhelming too - takes away the shrimp/pasta/cheese taste on the inside.
7) Oreo Cheesecake @ Cafe Cartel ($4.60 [$4.90 after GST -_-] )
The cheesecake part was a tad too lemony tasting and I couldn't taste the oreo. was still nice overall, but i prefer the plain cheesecake taste and.. more oreo plstnx. They asked me if i had student pass. =) I still look like a student :p
8) Mudpie with IceCream @ New York New York ($6.90 [$8.00 after service charge + GST])
This is so freaking delicious. I couldn't resist and took like two bites of it then remembered that we hadn't taken a photo of it. But seriously! The chocolate part is the richest chocolate you'll ever taste, and the chocolatey sauce on top (which amanda insists is milo powder + abit of water) accents the effect. The vanilla icecream allows your tastebuds to switch to a blander but still nice flavour so that you wont get overwhelmed by the richness of the chocolate, but allows a delicate balance of delicious chocolatey-dessert.
Nicest dessert ever! Well worth the money, go try it !
a shot taken with flash and at a different angle. Man.. i wanna eat it again.
9) Mushroom Soup @ Soup Spoon ($7.10)
Their soups are really nice and tasty. But amanda ordered a grande one .. which is like medium size. Which i thought was a little too much. The mushroom taste just got a little stifling after awhile. I liked it up to the point when i was feeling too.. overwhelmed by the mushroom taste. She finished the rest.
I think i preferred the soup we had the last time we were there.. i can't rem what's it's called. i think beef sth. i'm not sure.
and that concludes our food trail! i wish we had more food on the list though. I wanna go food trail again! hehe. see how.
(if you're really observant, you'll figure out that this photo obviously wasn't taken today. we forgot to take a pic :/ ugh. ) (well actually we did but mandyy thought she looked weird so she deleted -_- )
~~
we also watched Ah Long Pte Ltd.. which seriously isn't very good. There is no real plot, the flow isn't there. It has its funny moments, but.. it's so NOT a family show. It's.. riddled with sexual connotations. Like almost the whole thing. tsktsk.
shouldve watched the jaychou bball movie. ugh.
oh well, time to bookin tmr. happy valentine's day in advance to all. and happy A level results collection too. :/ the next time i come out will be.. 23rd Feb. holy cow that's long. :(
bye~
p.s. i tried to color code the food names to differentiate which were chosen by amanda and which were chosen by me.. but blogger seriously f---s up everything and after 10 mins of trying to fix it i've given up, hence some blue some black some pink. Items 1, 2b, 4, 5 were picked by amanda, the rest by me. yup.
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