I was having a conversation over Whatsapp with Jo-ann, a freshie from my Arts Camp OG, and she typed a long message to which I gave a short reply, and she asked why it was so short, and I said something like I actually have a lot to say but don't know how to express it.
To which she commented "Yea, you look like the kind of person who always has alot of thoughts in his mind" or something to that extent.
Indeed, I am experiencing that swirl of thoughts now. This swirl can be a gentle, mellow swirl which is simply me talking to myself. Then sometimes it swirls faster, and stronger, and it becomes a whirl. A whirl which seems to originate from more sources than 'me' and they're all talking to me at once. And I deflect them. I can't handle so many thoughts at once.
Some thoughts are totally illogical. Why do I feel _ over that? It's ridiculous. It's inappropriate. It's wild. It's madness.
It makes me want to just walk away. But I can't. I have committed. So all I can be is cryptic. And hope the swell goes down, and the whirl slows to a halt.
Another thing that has been weighing on my mind is - should I play WoW? I'm leaning so strongly towards 'Yes' now, and I'm already considering getting a 2nd account to hasten my leveling process.
But this game is not just a game. It's a vacuum. It sucks you in and keeps you there. I don't even know if I'll get to play end-game content which is probably the main reason why I am even starting up again. The leveling process is boring as hell, I've done it at least 10 times. Zzz.
I should go sleep now. Going to go for Psych camp (the last night basically) tomorrow to accompany the girlfriend, and probably won't get much sleep. Good night.
hi joann
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
Monday, 27 June 2011
Pre
I don't think I am a very good writer.
Wait what? Inferiority complex speaking?
Well, perhaps it's because I'm surrounded by really good writers; people who's writing I really admire and enjoy reading, such as mrbrown, weiqin (ahha yes I just did put your name next to mrbrown) etc. They have their own voice that they write with, and have their own unique and interesting style of writing.
I am a little different. I am a chameleon. I adapt to different styles that I like and adapt mine accordingly. This doesn't just apply to my writing, but also my behavior and mannerisms. It's almost subconscious but I am aware that I'm doing it. It's not an intentional decision to mimic, but I just do.
However, I'd like to believe that I have my own little distinct style. Just hidden amidst all the layers of mimicry, the layers of other people's styles, is my little gem of ME.
Ok that was a huge digression. Anyway I've had different people tell me that they enjoy reading my blog. I've no idea why. I don't think I'm particularly interesting or funny, but they tell me I am. Nonetheless, I appreciate these comments, and they add a little edge to the smile in my heart.
So I went back to read some of my blog posts to find out what was so interesting, and I realized something interesting.. like a prophecy that came true or something haha.
From a pre-Arts Camp entry:
1) Fun bunch? Understatement. They're mad! hahaha. Easily the most enthusiastic bunch of people I've met in camps so far. And crazy. and mad. And fun. :D I love the freshies (even if they don't love me D: ), and I hope they remain this close and this enthusiastic for a long time.
2) I don't know if I should consider it clicking, but I did get to bond with a certain few people. I'm really glad it turned out this way, even though this meant sacrificing bonding with the guys and getting alot of flak for it. Screw them. It's a tradeoff I don't regret taking. I hope these small group of people do end up being my good, close friends for a long time.
From the same entry:
I DID find ONE person in the OG who played SC2 - was even pretty good! Masters league! However, he had already stopped playing, and didn't intend to go back to the game. So it was like... finding a pot of gold but the pot is sealed and welded to the ground permanently.
Ok terrible analogy but you get the point. I hope.
Did end up taking leave, and was the best decision I made. Can't imagine how different it would be if I had just dropped by at nights. Won't be able to forge as many bonds!
Actually in the day I didn't really get to talk/bond much. Cos the freshies play the games, not me ma. It's the nights that made the difference.
So prophesy aside, I'm looking ahead at the new semester. Yes, 'at' the new semester, that wasn't a grammatical (or prepositional, whatever it's called) mistake. I'm looking at how much time I have left before school starts, and what I should do with my time.
For a brief moment last night, I was hit by a sudden impulse (is 'sudden' rhetorical?) to play WoW again.
(You can click this link to see my awesome journey through WoW. And how I earned $750 from it)
I really did love the game, and only stopped because school was starting.
I was even contemplating quitting my job so that I can focus on WoW for this month and at least hit end-game content and raid abit =X
But after some consideration, I managed to repress this urge and I think I won't be starting again! It better not swell up and overwhelm me again.
Ok, this blog post ended up much longer than it should be. If you wondered why the title was 'pre', it's because I was talking about 2 pre- things - precamp and preschoolstart. Haha. Till next time, my friends. (I'm assuming you are my friend hence you're reading this. If you're not I've no idea why you're reading this. Are you that bored? There are nicer things to read like www.cracked.com check it out yo)
Wait what? Inferiority complex speaking?
Well, perhaps it's because I'm surrounded by really good writers; people who's writing I really admire and enjoy reading, such as mrbrown, weiqin (ahha yes I just did put your name next to mrbrown) etc. They have their own voice that they write with, and have their own unique and interesting style of writing.
I am a little different. I am a chameleon. I adapt to different styles that I like and adapt mine accordingly. This doesn't just apply to my writing, but also my behavior and mannerisms. It's almost subconscious but I am aware that I'm doing it. It's not an intentional decision to mimic, but I just do.
However, I'd like to believe that I have my own little distinct style. Just hidden amidst all the layers of mimicry, the layers of other people's styles, is my little gem of ME.
Ok that was a huge digression. Anyway I've had different people tell me that they enjoy reading my blog. I've no idea why. I don't think I'm particularly interesting or funny, but they tell me I am. Nonetheless, I appreciate these comments, and they add a little edge to the smile in my heart.
So I went back to read some of my blog posts to find out what was so interesting, and I realized something interesting.. like a prophecy that came true or something haha.
From a pre-Arts Camp entry:
"I am quite hyped and excited about meeting the freshies and all hehe. Hope they're a fun bunchhope I can click with at least some of them!"
1) Fun bunch? Understatement. They're mad! hahaha. Easily the most enthusiastic bunch of people I've met in camps so far. And crazy. and mad. And fun. :D I love the freshies (even if they don't love me D: ), and I hope they remain this close and this enthusiastic for a long time.
2) I don't know if I should consider it clicking, but I did get to bond with a certain few people. I'm really glad it turned out this way, even though this meant sacrificing bonding with the guys and getting alot of flak for it. Screw them. It's a tradeoff I don't regret taking. I hope these small group of people do end up being my good, close friends for a long time.
From the same entry:
"AND it would be a super duper mega ultra unlikely bonus if .... there was just ONE person who is into Starcraft 2 like me! Omg bff for the camp already just talk SC2 strategies the whole camp hahhaha."
I DID find ONE person in the OG who played SC2 - was even pretty good! Masters league! However, he had already stopped playing, and didn't intend to go back to the game. So it was like... finding a pot of gold but the pot is sealed and welded to the ground permanently.
Ok terrible analogy but you get the point. I hope.
"Still undecided if I should take leave on 20-22 to stay on at Arts Camp or just drop by at nights."
Did end up taking leave, and was the best decision I made. Can't imagine how different it would be if I had just dropped by at nights. Won't be able to forge as many bonds!
Actually in the day I didn't really get to talk/bond much. Cos the freshies play the games, not me ma. It's the nights that made the difference.
So prophesy aside, I'm looking ahead at the new semester. Yes, 'at' the new semester, that wasn't a grammatical (or prepositional, whatever it's called) mistake. I'm looking at how much time I have left before school starts, and what I should do with my time.
For a brief moment last night, I was hit by a sudden impulse (is 'sudden' rhetorical?) to play WoW again.
(You can click this link to see my awesome journey through WoW. And how I earned $750 from it)
I really did love the game, and only stopped because school was starting.
I was even contemplating quitting my job so that I can focus on WoW for this month and at least hit end-game content and raid abit =X
But after some consideration, I managed to repress this urge and I think I won't be starting again! It better not swell up and overwhelm me again.
Ok, this blog post ended up much longer than it should be. If you wondered why the title was 'pre', it's because I was talking about 2 pre- things - precamp and preschoolstart. Haha. Till next time, my friends. (I'm assuming you are my friend hence you're reading this. If you're not I've no idea why you're reading this. Are you that bored? There are nicer things to read like www.cracked.com check it out yo)
Sunday, 26 June 2011
poem for friends
A friend like me
People laugh and people cry
When life's bad, they ask why
How to get up when they fall
Rise up again to stand tall
They look to you and wonder
How come you don't go under
If only they could see
That you have a friend like me.
A friend to listen,
A friend to care
A friend who is ready
For you to share
A friend to lean on
When you're uncertain
A friend who'll pull you up
When you hit rock bottom
Keep your chin up
Take joy in the fact
That I'll be there for you
For any emotional attack
When the dust settles
And the night is withdrawn
I'll be right next to you
Past the break of dawn.
-alan teo (C) 2011
People laugh and people cry
When life's bad, they ask why
How to get up when they fall
Rise up again to stand tall
They look to you and wonder
How come you don't go under
If only they could see
That you have a friend like me.
A friend to listen,
A friend to care
A friend who is ready
For you to share
A friend to lean on
When you're uncertain
A friend who'll pull you up
When you hit rock bottom
Keep your chin up
Take joy in the fact
That I'll be there for you
For any emotional attack
When the dust settles
And the night is withdrawn
I'll be right next to you
Past the break of dawn.
-alan teo (C) 2011
Friday, 24 June 2011
It's an odd feeling
Cognitive dissonance. Psychologists use the term to describe a certain mental discomfort that you experience, whenever your behavior and attitude aren't aligned. For instance, you know you're an honest person. Or at least you believe yourself so, and would describe yourself as one. One day, an inexplicable urge overcomes you to tell a lie. You suddenly feel very uneasy. You start questioning yourself. You experience cognitive dissonance.
I've been feeling weird lately. Cognitive dissonance is running through me. These 3 sentences rhyme happily.
OK random digression aside. After a 5 day hiatus from SC2, it feels weird to be playing it again. I don't have the same desire, passion, to play the game. To improve. To play more.
Everyone needs something to drive them. Something that keeps them going. A spark, something to ignite their engine. What is mine? I have nothing now.
Oh my, onset of depression ? haha. Random fact - it is commonly thought that depression is just a presence of sadness. However it's more accurately an absence of happiness. There's a subtle but vital difference. It's just not the same thing.
For example, everyone does feel sad from time to time. Maybe your friend stood you up. Maybe your dog died. I don't know. But you bounce back from it and engage in other meaningful activities which cheer you up.
Depressed people don't just not bounce back, but they don't derive pleasure from any activity. They never get 'cheered up'. Hence they remain in their depressed state.
Related to having drive is to have ambition. We all need a direction to head towards, otherwise how do we know where to go? Yes, I am an undergraduate in Arts and Social Science and my major is Psychology. Then comes the follow-up question - So what do you want to do after you graduate?
- I don't want to be a Psychologist/Psychiatrist
- I don't know what post-grad studies to do. Masters in.. what?
What jobs are open for me? What can I work as? HR? That's about it.
It's not that I am apathetic to this. Yes, I am generally an apathetic person. But I am aware of the NECESSITY to be in touch with society, to be up to date with news, to CARE about this. So I make the effort to do so. This drains energy from me. But I still do.
Anyway, I do think about this alot. What am I going to work as?
I'm very simple. I don't aim to be rich. I just want to earn enough to lead a comfortable life and be able to provide for my family. Pay off housing loans, have more than enough for food, and save up for my kids' university education. I'm not materialistic, I don't spend alot. Thus, I don't exactly need a high paying job.
But still. What can I work as? Civil service? MCYS? That's the closest I have to an inclination as to where I want to work as next time. And I'm not even sure.
Think I have to start thinking about this more seriously. Not just more, but more seriously.
I've been feeling weird lately. Cognitive dissonance is running through me. These 3 sentences rhyme happily.
OK random digression aside. After a 5 day hiatus from SC2, it feels weird to be playing it again. I don't have the same desire, passion, to play the game. To improve. To play more.
Everyone needs something to drive them. Something that keeps them going. A spark, something to ignite their engine. What is mine? I have nothing now.
Oh my, onset of depression ? haha. Random fact - it is commonly thought that depression is just a presence of sadness. However it's more accurately an absence of happiness. There's a subtle but vital difference. It's just not the same thing.
For example, everyone does feel sad from time to time. Maybe your friend stood you up. Maybe your dog died. I don't know. But you bounce back from it and engage in other meaningful activities which cheer you up.
Depressed people don't just not bounce back, but they don't derive pleasure from any activity. They never get 'cheered up'. Hence they remain in their depressed state.
Related to having drive is to have ambition. We all need a direction to head towards, otherwise how do we know where to go? Yes, I am an undergraduate in Arts and Social Science and my major is Psychology. Then comes the follow-up question - So what do you want to do after you graduate?
- I don't want to be a Psychologist/Psychiatrist
- I don't know what post-grad studies to do. Masters in.. what?
What jobs are open for me? What can I work as? HR? That's about it.
It's not that I am apathetic to this. Yes, I am generally an apathetic person. But I am aware of the NECESSITY to be in touch with society, to be up to date with news, to CARE about this. So I make the effort to do so. This drains energy from me. But I still do.
Anyway, I do think about this alot. What am I going to work as?
I'm very simple. I don't aim to be rich. I just want to earn enough to lead a comfortable life and be able to provide for my family. Pay off housing loans, have more than enough for food, and save up for my kids' university education. I'm not materialistic, I don't spend alot. Thus, I don't exactly need a high paying job.
But still. What can I work as? Civil service? MCYS? That's the closest I have to an inclination as to where I want to work as next time. And I'm not even sure.
Think I have to start thinking about this more seriously. Not just more, but more seriously.
Thursday, 23 June 2011
Arts Camp 2011 (1)
Just came back from Arts Camp yesterday! Wow it was really a blast, being the first Arts Camp I've been to.
I just went back to read my O week blog post (here) and realized the experience was just... quite different. It's like I had fun then as a freshie, so the fun is different. And this time round as a facil it is a very different feeling. hmm. I'll talk more about this later.
Anyway I don't have most of the photos yet, have to wait for Shaun / whoever-else-used-camera to upload them then I may make a 2nd post resembling my O week blog post. This post will be just with the photos I took with my phone and moreboring wordy thoughts-filled!
I didn't sign up as a facil because I was planning to work (need $$) and so I didn't know if I could commit to it. I ended up staying for every single day anyway, and was a 'full-time crasher' haha.
Ok the odd thing was this. While I definitely enjoyed hanging out with her, when she is around I feel like I have to accompany her otherwise it's like quite bad to leave her alone? Thus I can't leave her to go mingle with freshies.
Yet at the same time, at times when I can't mingle with freshies I'll want her around to pei ME haha.
And candice is like quite chill and wanna hide at the back kind haha so can't like pull her along to where the freshies are to do cheer or dunno what. So it was quite a dilemma. But I think I ended up balancing it ok la.
I hope.
Glad she came!
Day 1's night games was some odd game that I never quite understood because we didn't go for the briefing. I was assigned to some random spot so I dragged candice/sien/munch along, my fellow crashers!
Random camwhoring ensued.
Oh and it was SP night too! The freshies were all blindfolded and brought to meet other blindfolded people. Then the facils keep on ka-jiaoing the blindfolded freshies it was hilarious lololol. (when you're not the blindfolded one la hahaha)
And it was also the first time I spoke to some of the freshies.. and noone really knew my name besides the fact that I was 'the spectacles guy' hahaha. unique red specs =X
Ok i've no idea what day 2 was I can't remember already! I think like it's harder to remember when you don't play the games? Oh wait I know it's the Where's Wally thing but this called Finding Nemo. Councillor like quite chill dont need kena nailpolish or glitter or anything haha. With less contextual cues, poorer episodic memory!
#randomlypluggingPsychtermstoshamelesslyshowoff
Night 2's Fright night was REALLY AWESOME haha the ghosts all super convincing and scary looking! But the biggest shock I got was Sarah's scream so.. lolol.
Anyway, Day 3 was Beach Day!
It all really felt quite different - without playing the games it seems like it was all more chill and stuff. Like not doing anything! Too slack already.
As usual the guys went to dunk girls and guys and whoever they could get their hands on... I didn't join in as I don't like this kinda thing? Just find it lame. Like taopok / dunking all these. Especially dunking girls?!? This year wasn't so bad, last year during O week the girls all unite and struggle like mad and it looked like some rape scene. Just not my type of thing. :/
3rd night was awesome, not because of the games, but because of the quality time I spent with 3 freshies, simin, jo-ann and sang.
Anyone who knows me well will know that I prefer smaller groups as compared to big groups, 1-on-1 as compared to small groups (2nd one more for when sharing personal stuff). Hence I never liked all those entire-OG HTHT sessions i think it's quite lame? And don't have the right atmosphere and mood. Like why will I want to share my personal thoughts and feelings with like 912873 people at once?
So it was like, the entire OG was having some group thing but when they shifted outside those 3 girls didn't wanna go out cos they were feeling uncomfortable w what they were talking abt (shoot shag marry.. -_- ) and so basically the 3 of us just talked nonsense and personal stuff and everything under the sun for a few hours!
Which is why subsequently when people asked me 'what did you talk/htht with the girls about??' I had no idea what to answer them, because we talked about like everything.
4th day was wargames + social night which was more for the freshies than anything. I'm totally not the clubbing type so I was bored stiff at Central forum where they had the clubbing music and the dance tentage and whatnot. Don't drink either, so... omg absolute boredom.
I was saved when some girls said they were tired and wanted to go back to hall, so I quickly said that I would go back with them. Made some emo tweets for some reason which I won't mention on a public sphere like this.
managed to get another mini session of htht with simin n joann (sang fell asleep) but the two girls were too tired so it ended early. I mean, last night supposed to not sleep and talk till morning one what! lol. oh well.
5th day was a waste of time, basically some lame ceremony where all freshies shook hands with all facils. Like ALL, the entire camp. Won't bother describing it because it's lame. But I got my favourite part of camps:
I'm a pretty sentimental person, and I like all these meaningful things ma. So... :D Ok la not bad got meaningful and longenough comments from the people that mattered so yay. :)
And even got cute drawings:
This batch of freshies are REALLY enthu - the most enthu freshies in all the camps I've been to (O week and Psych camp). I mean, to have freshies leading cheer on 1st /2nd day, freshies wanting to run from station to station on their own volition - mad awesomeness!
And just one day after camp they're already planning OG outing! Man, they're great.
I hope the bonds I've forged will last looong. Camp has made me feel really lazy about doing anything now, like don't feel like working anymore haha just wanna nua. Maybe it's the fact that I only slept 12 hours in 4 nights, and only got to sleep from 8-8 (have work today so must wake up early)
It was a great experience, albeit a little different because I was a crasher-facil, but I still liked it nonetheless. It's kinda odd though, like I want to hang out with the freshies but then like abit weird if the freshies all gather talk then the seniors are all the other table then I go over alone and sit with them. Then I'm not like super close with the facils either so ... JUST ODD.
And I've more or less confirmed that I'm at introvert, in accordance to Jung's theory of introversion/extraversion, as my gf pointed out to me.
Because I was telling her I felt really socially drained by the 4th/5th day - Like I don't quite know how to make small talk anymore and I was perfectly fine not talking to anyone and just listening to others or sitting alone though I kept forcing myself to at least chip in with random one-liners here and there and laugh along at things.
It felt like I had used up all my socializing-energy or something ! And as the theory suggests,
(or rather this was how my gf paraphrased it)
Yup. With that, I shall abruptly end this entry.
I just went back to read my O week blog post (here) and realized the experience was just... quite different. It's like I had fun then as a freshie, so the fun is different. And this time round as a facil it is a very different feeling. hmm. I'll talk more about this later.
Anyway I don't have most of the photos yet, have to wait for Shaun / whoever-else-used-camera to upload them then I may make a 2nd post resembling my O week blog post. This post will be just with the photos I took with my phone and more
I didn't sign up as a facil because I was planning to work (need $$) and so I didn't know if I could commit to it. I ended up staying for every single day anyway, and was a 'full-time crasher' haha.
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| Fellow crasher Candice! She came for the first and third day |
Yet at the same time, at times when I can't mingle with freshies I'll want her around to pei ME haha.
And candice is like quite chill and wanna hide at the back kind haha so can't like pull her along to where the freshies are to do cheer or dunno what. So it was quite a dilemma. But I think I ended up balancing it ok la.
I hope.
Glad she came!
Day 1's night games was some odd game that I never quite understood because we didn't go for the briefing. I was assigned to some random spot so I dragged candice/sien/munch along, my fellow crashers!
Random camwhoring ensued.
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| Don't ask me what is this they asked me to pose like that idk what this is either |
Oh and it was SP night too! The freshies were all blindfolded and brought to meet other blindfolded people. Then the facils keep on ka-jiaoing the blindfolded freshies it was hilarious lololol. (when you're not the blindfolded one la hahaha)
And it was also the first time I spoke to some of the freshies.. and noone really knew my name besides the fact that I was 'the spectacles guy' hahaha. unique red specs =X
Ok i've no idea what day 2 was I can't remember already! I think like it's harder to remember when you don't play the games? Oh wait I know it's the Where's Wally thing but this called Finding Nemo. Councillor like quite chill dont need kena nailpolish or glitter or anything haha. With less contextual cues, poorer episodic memory!
#randomlypluggingPsychtermstoshamelesslyshowoff
Night 2's Fright night was REALLY AWESOME haha the ghosts all super convincing and scary looking! But the biggest shock I got was Sarah's scream so.. lolol.
Anyway, Day 3 was Beach Day!
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| Me with the lovebirds whose hands probably parted for at most 5 minutes the ENTIRE day. I'm not exaggerating. Ok maybe I am. It was probably only 1-2 minutes. | . |
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| star pose fail attempt |
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| I put super adhesive glue on my head and stuck them to it. |
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| The guy next to me is Hysen AKA S-House-Manslut. Why is he called manslut? see next picture. And the guy next to him is Criss Angel. Ok fine no Angel |
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| wtf |
It all really felt quite different - without playing the games it seems like it was all more chill and stuff. Like not doing anything! Too slack already.
As usual the guys went to dunk girls and guys and whoever they could get their hands on... I didn't join in as I don't like this kinda thing? Just find it lame. Like taopok / dunking all these. Especially dunking girls?!? This year wasn't so bad, last year during O week the girls all unite and struggle like mad and it looked like some rape scene. Just not my type of thing. :/
3rd night was awesome, not because of the games, but because of the quality time I spent with 3 freshies, simin, jo-ann and sang.
Anyone who knows me well will know that I prefer smaller groups as compared to big groups, 1-on-1 as compared to small groups (2nd one more for when sharing personal stuff). Hence I never liked all those entire-OG HTHT sessions i think it's quite lame? And don't have the right atmosphere and mood. Like why will I want to share my personal thoughts and feelings with like 912873 people at once?
So it was like, the entire OG was having some group thing but when they shifted outside those 3 girls didn't wanna go out cos they were feeling uncomfortable w what they were talking abt (shoot shag marry.. -_- ) and so basically the 3 of us just talked nonsense and personal stuff and everything under the sun for a few hours!
Which is why subsequently when people asked me 'what did you talk/htht with the girls about??' I had no idea what to answer them, because we talked about like everything.
4th day was wargames + social night which was more for the freshies than anything. I'm totally not the clubbing type so I was bored stiff at Central forum where they had the clubbing music and the dance tentage and whatnot. Don't drink either, so... omg absolute boredom.
I was saved when some girls said they were tired and wanted to go back to hall, so I quickly said that I would go back with them. Made some emo tweets for some reason which I won't mention on a public sphere like this.
managed to get another mini session of htht with simin n joann (sang fell asleep) but the two girls were too tired so it ended early. I mean, last night supposed to not sleep and talk till morning one what! lol. oh well.
5th day was a waste of time, basically some lame ceremony where all freshies shook hands with all facils. Like ALL, the entire camp. Won't bother describing it because it's lame. But I got my favourite part of camps:
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| The card! |
And even got cute drawings:
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| Why am I wearing a mitten |
This batch of freshies are REALLY enthu - the most enthu freshies in all the camps I've been to (O week and Psych camp). I mean, to have freshies leading cheer on 1st /2nd day, freshies wanting to run from station to station on their own volition - mad awesomeness!
And just one day after camp they're already planning OG outing! Man, they're great.
I hope the bonds I've forged will last looong. Camp has made me feel really lazy about doing anything now, like don't feel like working anymore haha just wanna nua. Maybe it's the fact that I only slept 12 hours in 4 nights, and only got to sleep from 8-8 (have work today so must wake up early)
It was a great experience, albeit a little different because I was a crasher-facil, but I still liked it nonetheless. It's kinda odd though, like I want to hang out with the freshies but then like abit weird if the freshies all gather talk then the seniors are all the other table then I go over alone and sit with them. Then I'm not like super close with the facils either so ... JUST ODD.
And I've more or less confirmed that I'm at introvert, in accordance to Jung's theory of introversion/extraversion, as my gf pointed out to me.
Because I was telling her I felt really socially drained by the 4th/5th day - Like I don't quite know how to make small talk anymore and I was perfectly fine not talking to anyone and just listening to others or sitting alone though I kept forcing myself to at least chip in with random one-liners here and there and laugh along at things.
It felt like I had used up all my socializing-energy or something ! And as the theory suggests,
(or rather this was how my gf paraphrased it)
"Extroverts draw energy from being in social groups and situations, so they like to be in them. They feel more energized and positive etcetc with more social interaction.
Introverts deplete energy in social groups and situations. It takes effort for them to be part of these, so their 'social energy' will eventually be depleted and they'll be unable to sustain this anymore."
Yup. With that, I shall abruptly end this entry.
Tuesday, 14 June 2011
random camwhoring
Hey look I'm blogging again! Wow surprise surprise.
Anyway yesterday I met sh for dinner after work :) She came all the way down to meet me at my office la and we ate near my place too. my awesome girlfriend.
ok yup PICTURE SPAMM. All pictures taken with LemeLeme! (iPhone camera app)
But I said she puff her face so small, where got look like what I'm doing!? So she :
Actually that's not all for this entry, just the photospam!
Today is my first tuition lesson! Oh man. I've already prepared a worksheet to let my Sec3 Emath kid do.. hope he takes 1.5 hours to do haha then I can just chill there.
Maaaannn hope it goes well.
And me and SH together with 2 other friends have planned a holiday to Batam!! Whee! First time in my life I'm actually going for a holiday like this. Yes yes, I don't travel much. I'm a poor boy k, + I dont really have a tight clique of friends to go on trips like these. I'm more of a 1-to-1 guy!
OK anyway. Excited about the trip :D Hope my passport application goes through quickly and smoothly and we can confirm it.
Anyway yesterday I met sh for dinner after work :) She came all the way down to meet me at my office la and we ate near my place too. my awesome girlfriend.
ok yup PICTURE SPAMM. All pictures taken with LemeLeme! (iPhone camera app)
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Today is my first tuition lesson! Oh man. I've already prepared a worksheet to let my Sec3 Emath kid do.. hope he takes 1.5 hours to do haha then I can just chill there.
Maaaannn hope it goes well.
And me and SH together with 2 other friends have planned a holiday to Batam!! Whee! First time in my life I'm actually going for a holiday like this. Yes yes, I don't travel much. I'm a poor boy k, + I dont really have a tight clique of friends to go on trips like these. I'm more of a 1-to-1 guy!
OK anyway. Excited about the trip :D Hope my passport application goes through quickly and smoothly and we can confirm it.
Monday, 13 June 2011
Why blogging is dying
I feel bad because I know there are some people who do read my blog occasionally (or rather, visit, since there's nothing to read because I don't update) and I haven't been blogging anything for quite awhile.
But but but, I promise to make an awesome blog entry after ARTS CAMP k!!
Yup the annual Arts Camp is taking place from the 18-22 June, which is this Saturday! I am quite hyped and excited about meeting the freshies and all hehe. Hope they're a fun bunch and more importantly - hope I can click with at least some of them!
Like you know there may be fun people but they're just not your type. Then you don't really get along because.. like different wavelength? Yupyup.
AND it would be a super duper mega ultra unlikely bonus if .... there was just ONE person who is into Starcraft 2 like me! Omg bff for the camp already just talk SC2 strategies the whole camp hahhaha.
Still undecided if I should take leave on 20-22 to stay on at Arts Camp or just drop by at nights... must check the schedule! And if I do it's like 60x3 = $180 gone so bleah. Opportunity cost.
POST EDIT - omg ok I just found out some fun people are gonna be at arts camp haha ok double hype.
Ok you may be wondering why I named this entry as such.... it's because I think blogging is dying! Ok that totally doesn't explain it. Let me continue! With the rising popularity of things like Twitter and Facebook, it is becoming and increasing tendency to just tweet whatever I want to blog about. After all, Twitter IS a 'micro-blogging service'.
In the past how blogging worked for me is that I'll get an idea about something to write while outside then I'll develop it in my head then go home and blog it out. Or maybe there's some event that occurred with some photos taken so I'll make an entry.
Now, I just tweet those ideas, and upload those photos to Facebook. Finis. ('Finish' en francais)
That explains the lack of blog posts!
Also, I've been quite active and busy with stuff over at www.sc2sea.com , writing articles and contributing to discussions and all. Haven't even really been playing much 1v1s, just chilling and challenging people in chat.
So......... if you still visit this blog from time to time... THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I will try to update more k. After Arts Camp definitely will. I'll post on Twitter whenever I make a blogpost so if you're someone who knows me go ahead and follow me on Twitter! (If you're some random I probably won't accept to avoid spambots)
Abrupt end to the blog post here.
But but but, I promise to make an awesome blog entry after ARTS CAMP k!!
Yup the annual Arts Camp is taking place from the 18-22 June, which is this Saturday! I am quite hyped and excited about meeting the freshies and all hehe. Hope they're a fun bunch and more importantly - hope I can click with at least some of them!
Like you know there may be fun people but they're just not your type. Then you don't really get along because.. like different wavelength? Yupyup.
AND it would be a super duper mega ultra unlikely bonus if .... there was just ONE person who is into Starcraft 2 like me! Omg bff for the camp already just talk SC2 strategies the whole camp hahhaha.
Still undecided if I should take leave on 20-22 to stay on at Arts Camp or just drop by at nights... must check the schedule! And if I do it's like 60x3 = $180 gone so bleah. Opportunity cost.
POST EDIT - omg ok I just found out some fun people are gonna be at arts camp haha ok double hype.
Ok you may be wondering why I named this entry as such.... it's because I think blogging is dying! Ok that totally doesn't explain it. Let me continue! With the rising popularity of things like Twitter and Facebook, it is becoming and increasing tendency to just tweet whatever I want to blog about. After all, Twitter IS a 'micro-blogging service'.
In the past how blogging worked for me is that I'll get an idea about something to write while outside then I'll develop it in my head then go home and blog it out. Or maybe there's some event that occurred with some photos taken so I'll make an entry.
Now, I just tweet those ideas, and upload those photos to Facebook. Finis. ('Finish' en francais)
That explains the lack of blog posts!
Also, I've been quite active and busy with stuff over at www.sc2sea.com , writing articles and contributing to discussions and all. Haven't even really been playing much 1v1s, just chilling and challenging people in chat.
So......... if you still visit this blog from time to time... THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I will try to update more k. After Arts Camp definitely will. I'll post on Twitter whenever I make a blogpost so if you're someone who knows me go ahead and follow me on Twitter! (If you're some random I probably won't accept to avoid spambots)
Abrupt end to the blog post here.
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